Hate

原以为自己已能应付这种特殊关系， 原来不然。我还是不行！ 我还是不制禁的受影响。我的平稳状态， 又一再被拨起， 搞到我情绪不稳。 我不伟大，我会嫉妒， 我会介意， 我甚至不能认同这样的行为。。。。。

这样的游戏里，规定是这样定的： you can't agree with those rules & regulars , u lose. No second or N chances to retry until victory, you have to admit you are loser! U have to quit from the games!
AHHHHHHH....
Is there anyone can tell me what am i going to do? How to forget?
I am damn lost! I can't find my happiness!
I want to be honest to myself & just love myself & my family, no others!
I need to set myself free from this situation!
I can't let myself so useless!
I must believe that I will find my love & build up my happy family.
I want to have my own children whom will have a caring & responsible father.
I don't want to worry about my love one whom might go to bed with other women.
The one I love will be the one whom treassure me & I am his priority in life!
I am not greedy, rite?
I pray, I beg....I wish....
Pls God!